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| Sunday, November 22nd, 2009 | | 10:45 am |
First Day of the Rest of Blah Blah Blah
Have dropped off H at the airport. Fairly certain he actually got on the plane. I kind of put my life on hold for the past week, just dealing with stuff that needed doing immediately. Of which there was plenty, as H got into a car accident on Wednesday and the toilet overflowed last night (just before my parents dropped by, so my dad ended up helping with that because that's just the kind of guy he is) and there were myriad important conversations we had to have every time I turned around. He'll be staying with his mom. The guy she's been seeing for a while has actually moved in with her - not only did she not tell us this, she barely told us she was dating someone. H was more upset about that than I would have guessed - when she dated Alan it didn't seem to bother him so much, but this is actually impacting his plans, so maybe that's some of it. His mom is having a hard time with all this, also, she's been laboring under the misapprehension that H is "fixed" since New Bridge. Anyway, I've got some time now to figure out what my life looks like when it isn't accommodating H. I'm looking forward to that Current Mood: sneezyCurrent Music: Saints Football! | | Friday, November 20th, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
| | Thursday, November 19th, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
Loudtwitter summary - Car Accident Edition
What was happening with me yesterday? Oh, right: Automatically shipped by LoudTwitterSo, DH was in an accident on Wednesday down in Fremont. Another car stopped entirely on the freeway in front of him, he couldn't swerve around it, hood and fender are all bashed up. He's fine, his passenger is fine, the other car was driven away so it couldn't have been too badly messed up. State Farm found us a body shop near us who arranged for towing is rolling that initial towing charge into the repair bill so we didn't have to go take care of all that ourselves like I was braced for. The car is at a body shop, we haven't heard anything about an estimate yet. Insurance agent called today and said they've determined DH is responsible for the accident, which bummed him out but I don't think will make too much of a difference to us in a practical sense. Tiresome, but the timing is not bad, this is a pretty good time for us to have only one car for a while. And the body shop is next to George's Feed & Seed which I have been meaning to check out but is in a part of town I have no other reason to get to, so at least I know exactly where it is, now. It's weird, that part of Suisun that is away from the water is very much like Metairie. But with occasional sheep and I think vineyards, which improves it quite a bit, but I'm glad I decided early on that if we were gonna live in Suisun it would have to be downtown. Current Mood:  tiredCurrent Music: None | | Wednesday, November 18th, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
| | Tuesday, November 17th, 2009 | | 7:06 pm |
Poor Toyota
Loyal readers may remember that we had to put a new engine in the Toyota last month after it threw a rod. Did I even write about that here? I don't remember. Anyway. We were just about to take it back to the garage for its 1000 mile checkup on fluids, etc., tomorrow. Except H got into an accident this afternoon. He and a co-worker had to go down to Fremont for the unending hell that the lab down there generates, and H drove. On the way back (presumably, I couldn't hear him that well, I will explain why when I get to that part), the car in front of him on the highway came to a complete stop, he couldn't slow down enough to avoid it and was too hemmed in by other traffic to swerve. Bashed up fender, he says. No ticket, so that's something, maybe the other guy was at fault, I don't know. CHP called a tow truck, who brought the car to some sort of storage facility in Fremont and gave H a ride to BART. He's in Richmond right now, waiting for Capital Corridor train 544 to bring him the rest of the way home. Of course, his phone was basically out of juice when the accident happened, so he couldn't call me until he got to an outlet, which was at the train station but that, unfortunately, was right under the speaker so I could hear the PA announcing delays and whatnot a lot better than I could hear H. His train should get in at 8, I might go pick him up if I am feeling benevolent (it's not a long walk to our house, but it is dark and chilly). I guess we'll call our insurance agent tomorrow morning, and presumably go deal with the car after that. So not what I planned to do tomorrow. Oh well. Current Mood:  crankyCurrent Music: The Daily Show | | Friday, November 13th, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
Loudtwitter summary
What was happening with me yesterday? Oh, right: Automatically shipped by LoudTwitterThat's right, I can estimate monthly payments for loans given their interest rates and terms before I apply for them. Fear me. | | Thursday, November 12th, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
| | Wednesday, November 11th, 2009 | | 7:22 am |
Hey Invisible People in the Box
Henry says Hi and thanks for your wise counsel I am at a loss as to how to punctuate that. I'm sure you understand. Feeling s lot more sane today, yay! Current Music: NPR: Morning Edition | | Tuesday, November 10th, 2009 | | 1:12 pm |
I Might Be in Need of a Reality Check (if it doesn't bounce)
I am probably being really unreasonable. We bounced a couple of checks drawn on our HSA to pay for therapy sessions. Now our therapist wants us to pay in cash. I really don't want to do that. It is upsetting me quite a bit. Part of it is that I just don't want to send my husband off with $100 in cash twice a week. We are still rebuilding trust and I am just not there. And the other part is that our insurance only authorizes $74/session and we've been paying $100. Maybe that is usual for therapy, but that's not the way it works for the rest of my medical bills. And coupling my unease over that with the feeling I have that people who insist on cash are trying to get away with something, and I am about ready to change therapists. Which would be inconvenient, but I am just really uncomfortable with the whole thing.. So, is this one of those things that I just need to get over? Current Mood: frustrated | | 6:30 am |
| | Sunday, November 8th, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
| | Thursday, November 5th, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
| | Wednesday, November 4th, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
Loudtwitter summary
What was happening with me yesterday? Oh, right: Automatically shipped by LoudTwitterEnded up sleeping for a good couple-three hours in the afternoon and felt better when I got up (even though it was DARK by then). | | Monday, November 2nd, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
| | Sunday, November 1st, 2009 | | 6:16 pm |
Monthly progress report
4.5 lbs down this month. That puts me at a lower weight than I have been for at least a year. It's a measurable difference in all of my, er, measurements - waist, bust, etc. - but I have yet to go down a size. Of course, today I am all bloated with extra menstruation weight, so maybe something that hasn't fit in a while will again, soon. I was finally getting some consistency to my exercise routine and the this weekend I was just wiped out and barely able to stand, so I'm not sure where to aim for this week. I'm dialing it back a little bit in hopes that I won't wear myself out again, or whatever that was, but I don't want to cut back too much, either. H sticking to a regular routine should help with that. When I know when he's doing what, I can plan when I'm doing things either with him or on my own, and I do love a plan, so I hope this trend continues. We went from 7-days (all three meals for me, breakfast and dinner only for H) eating DietToGo down to 5 lunch and dinner. Adjusting to breakfast has been easy enough, I have a good idea of what kind of caloric levels work for me for breakfast at this point and I've got a few stand-by meals that are generally satisfying. I really missed being able to eat out occasionally, so I'm glad to have that option back, but I'm not entirely confident that my choices for lunches and dinners off the plan are healthy ones. It's the trade-off, if I want the freedom to eat out I have to give up the certainty that the nutrition is all figured out for me. Going okay so far, I think. I rearranged most of the living room over the last few days, and that meant moving around things in breakfast nook, as well. I think it's better. Still have to swap the piano and comfy chair, and figure out what to do with the thing H calls a divan (I think Target referred to it as a cushioned bench, it's got kind of a fainting couch aspect to it). It may fir where I want it, it may not. But I've got the crystal and purple glass on display where we can actually see it, which is nice, and the loveseat is against the wall so it won't keep sliding backwards like it used to, and I can see out the picture window while I sit on it if I just turn my head (which I didn't think would work, that's a pleasant surprise), and the rug still works, now with more room for Yoga. Seems like better chi flow. Current Mood:  cheerfulCurrent Music: Monk | | Saturday, October 31st, 2009 | | 6:30 am |
| | Thursday, October 29th, 2009 | | 1:21 pm |
Bodies are Weird
Gah, I am all shaky and exhausted today. I can't think of any reason why that should be, either. I didn't overdo it yesterday. I got a perfectly respectable amount of sleep. But all I have to do is stand up for two minutes and my legs are ready to buckle. Weird. I'd think I had the flu if there was anything at all else wrong with me, but there isn't - no aches or fever or even feeling wonky. I do feel like maybe I could sleep some more, so I may do that... | | 6:30 am |
Loudtwitter summary
What was happening with me yesterday? Oh, right: Automatically shipped by LoudTwitterWe didn't even know it was there when we moved in, it was so totally covered by the encroaching blackberries from the neighbor's yard, and now it's got fruit! So exciting. | | Tuesday, October 27th, 2009 | | 1:52 pm |
Strategerising
Well, I found an ad for a job that I wouldn't feel like a total fraud if I applied for it. So, that whole becoming employed thing maybe not impossible, just difficult. I'm not sure what I'm going to do with that information, yet. I'd need to do a number of things before I'd be ready to put in any applications - haircut, professional wardrobe (I don't think I could put together a single outfit that fits and would be work appropriate right now. Sad but true), finding things like my actuarial exam results and school records, etcetera, etcetera. And chances are good that any job I would take would involve a long commute. A lot of my take-home pay would no doubt go to transportation, hiring a housecleaner, and doggie daycare. It would be a lot harder to keep up my exercise routine, much less expand it as much as I would like. And it sure doesn't seem like that would increase my chances for ever having a family, though those are already seeming very low. In short, looks like a lot of waffling in my future. The husband is trying to establish more of a routine for himself - getting to bed early, cutting back on caffeine, eating at regular times, that sort of thing. Too early to tell how it's going. I'm kind of doubtful about the whole thing, today. I don't think he is so much trying to be a more functional human being as trying to figure out how much superficial functionality he needs to demonstrate to be able to keep his bad habits hidden. I hope I'm wrong. Edited on Nov. 1: I actually bawled at him a bit over this feeling I had and he was convincingly rueful about past bad behavior and has done nothing to arouse suspicions since but rather put in practice ways of reassuring me (like having an NA brother call me when meetings run long, which is so helpful). In short, I am feeling much better. Current Mood:  gloomyCurrent Music: The Daily Show | | 6:30 am |
Loudtwitter summary
What was happening with me yesterday? Oh, right: And, a day later, the DVR and remote are still sitting here in my living room, waiting to go back to Comcast. I roll my eyes at myself. Automatically shipped by LoudTwitter |
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